Thursday, December 23, 2010

shine a good light

This is what's been on my heart this Christmas season:

If I'm "the only Jesus" someone ever sees...or I'm the one Christian someone knows...if I'm the face of Christianity and I'm a gigantic puke - a stink nugget - a worm, what kind of example am I being?

Hey! Jesus is awesome! But what about all these idiots...who let them in here?

(That last phrase is what I've been living out in the last since-my-baby-was-born.)

James MacDonald said something once that's been ringing in my ears. Here's my best attempt at paraphrasing:

You may not be the one to plant the seed, but let's don't stomp the soil all hard so that no one can plant it.

I don't want to be a soil stomper. I don't want people to look at me and say, "THAT'S what it means to love and follow Jesus?! NO THANK YOU."

So. I'm sorry I've been a puke. And that my light is a laser shining into your eyeball. I'm going to try and shine a nicer light. Because Jesus really is awesome. I'm not awesome.

I'm celebrating His birthday this weekend.

Merry Christmas.


poppa said...

I am sorry it wasn't a windy day when you were born, fell a little close to the tree...but HE is working to make us more like Him, and I think you are an incredible example of who He desires us to be. Thank you for being you, love you forever.

Anonymous said...

Aaaahhhh, I came on here to tell you how amazing you are and then I see "Poppa's" comment.... brought tears to my eyes and how can I beat that! You are a wonderful example of a TRUE Christian person. Keep shining your light, it helps me see the right path! :) MERRY CHRISTMAS Katie! Love you!