This is what's been on my heart this Christmas season:
If I'm "the only Jesus" someone ever sees...or I'm the one Christian someone knows...if I'm the face of Christianity and I'm a gigantic puke - a stink nugget - a worm, what kind of example am I being?
Hey! Jesus is awesome! But what about all these idiots...who let them in here?
(That last phrase is what I've been living out in the last since-my-baby-was-born.)
James MacDonald said something once that's been ringing in my ears. Here's my best attempt at paraphrasing:
You may not be the one to plant the seed, but let's don't stomp the soil all hard so that no one can plant it.
I don't want to be a soil stomper. I don't want people to look at me and say, "THAT'S what it means to love and follow Jesus?! NO THANK YOU."
So. I'm sorry I've been a puke. And that my light is a laser shining into your eyeball. I'm going to try and shine a nicer light. Because Jesus really is awesome. I'm not awesome.
I'm celebrating His birthday this weekend.