Wednesday, June 4, 2008

hormones and emotions

My girl finished Kindergarten. Next week, she'll be leaving for college. Her wedding will be three days after that, and before next month, I'll be a grandmother.

At least, that's how it feels. Two weeks ago, she was a newborn! How is it that time can be so warped?! People tell you that time flies...and you know, I never completely grasped that until I had babies. (Excuse, me. I need a box of tissues.)

I've heard it said that the days are long but the years are short. How true. How illogical and strange and spot on.

And, there seems to be a conspiracy with all radio stations. EVERY song is about how my girl is going to grow up and leave me. Don't they know that she can't? Ever leave? Never? She NEEDS me too much.

ahem

The people who warn you not to define yourself by motherhood alone are wise. Very wise.

I know that I have a job to do. An important job. A VERY important job. My mind knows that this is all a part of God's divine plan. We raise our children. We train them. We teach them who they are in Christ. We feed them, and buy them clothes and more toys than can fit into our home, and then we give them a gentle shove out of the nest. Or, we hold on to their tail feathers with white knuckles as they drag us behind them trying with all their might to loose our grasp.

I know all these things in my head, but this heart of mine has a REALLY hard time wrapping around it all.

5 comments:

poppa said...

By investing yourself in your children the old adage the best is yet to come holds true. By empowering those God gives you, to be all they can be, the future is better than the present. I am experiencing it now. The early years were precious and special. Each new phase brings its own joys. Your heart will know more joy than you thought possible. Watch out for flying buttons.

betty r said...

Yep that is how life goes..now I'm watching g'kids growing up. It just goes way to fast but I'm loving the journey!!

neeter said...

Wait until you blink and your third child is a walking talking person!

The long days, short years is the norm here too. I have been pregnant or breastfeeding for 6 years now and time has flown.

((HUGS))

Smellyann said...

I know what you mean. I've been in shock for days that my daughter is going to be in SECOND GRADE next month!!!! And my little boy in kindergarten! OY.

Sally said...

But then one day your baby calls you and has made a pedicure appointment for the both of you!! And you pick out nail polish color and go buy mascara and clothes and she drives and then you get supper and her house is spick and span (just like you did!)ready for you to come and visit!! and you sit in the bathroom while she puts on her makeup and talk and she gets ready for her job!! FUN ahead!!!!Happy cries are ahead!!